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I feel interested in vampire aus 👀 I'd love to hear your take
For some reason I am so self concious and embarrassed about my vampire au, be niceys to me
There's not a lot of world building behind it, like I've always wanted to write a fic where the world works differently to canon but instead of explaining it, you just dive right in with minimal explanation, and see how the veiwers interpret it. I like reading those and I think it'd be fun to try and write
The basic idea is that vampires need blood because their bodies can't produce their own. And so if they don't get it enough, that's when the blood hunger (??? craze?? idk what it's called but when they go feral) kicks in. You know how you get really intense cravings based on what your body is lacking? Like sometimes you just want to eat salt out of your hand? It's like that but with the added instinct of needed to Hunt Your Prey. And it's not just craving blood, it's also because you're actually starving, and in pain and desperate because of that, to the point where it clouds your thinking. Like how an average human would respond, but once again with the added supernatural instincts.
It takes a lot to get to that point, though. There's a difference between being hungry, not having enough fresh blood in your system so you're a little snappy, to Actually Fucking Starving. Blood craze is about your body starting to shut down so your brain starts lashing out in a desperate attempt to survive
There's a little more lore to it in my head, like how vampires function in general and like. how and why they exist, but I'm too tired to get into it rn plus it's not that important
The fic in my head is about Sonic, who is a vampire, being in that position. It's on Knuckles' pov, and Amy and Tails are there. Basically, things happened and as a result Sonic has been starved, like literally, and now they're all back and safe at (??? Tails' workshop maybe) but now they have to deal with This. None of them have been in this situation before, they don't know what to do or how to make it better. Seeing Sonic like this, in so much pain and lashing out and trying to hurt them because he can't think properly, is fucking terrifying because it's not like him at all. It's terrifying to see someone you know and love in that position, and it throws you off balance. Seeing someone whos usually so strong in such a weak and vulnerable position is gut wrenching. And they KNOW the easiest way to help, but they know that they can't do that, he'd end up killing them, so they have to do it the slower way (tails leaves to break in to a hospital and steal blood while amy and knuckles stay with sonic)
It sounds super lame now that I type it out shdjdjd. The focus is on the fact that this is a Scary Situation, not because of the fact that Sonic's a vampire, but because like fuck dude!! medical emergencies aren't fun and seeing someone you love Like That is fucking terrifying!! and Sonic's in and out of lucidity and knuckles cant figure out if he prefers it when Sonic's acting like a fucking rabid animal or when sonic is fucking terrified and shaking and depending on them to both keep him in check and comfort him. Sonic's ooc in this because that's the point. And also amy knuckles and tails trying to deal with everything that comes with a loved one trying to attack you, like you know it's not their fault but it also really scares you, and dealing with during All Of This would be. interesting to say the least.
Vivid mental image: in his desperation he ends up trying to bite himself and they have to scramble to get him to Not Do That. and they end up taping a bunch of cardboard together so he has something to bite and seeing him sitting there like that, jaw clamped down on some goddamn cardboard while he shakes and looks terrified, is so jarring, like it's something that knuckles would normally make fun of him for, the whole situation is ridiculous, sonic and his shitty new chewtoy, but it's not funny at all, it's devastating and the image is seared into his brain and he doesn't know how to deal with it
I started to write it yesterday while half asleep and god damn you can tell I was half asleep. It's not good sndndn I would like to finish it because it's such a vivid image in my head but also I'm so fucking embarrassed this is so self indulgent of me. hurt/comfort and vulnerability, yknow
#EMBARRASSING!!!!!! MIGHT DELETE LATER!!!!!!!#egg.txt#ask#libelelle#this is probably hard to read im exhausted rn
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✧ROWENA HAIR✧
haven’t posted anything last month bc life got in the way so here’s something! it’s inspired by my current hairstyle; unwashed for days, a little bit of sea salt spray and overnight curlers for good measure :]
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BGC
both frames
teen-elder
hat compatible
24 EA colors + 17 custom colors
shadow, spec, and normal maps
all LODs
⚠ 22k polys ⚠
hair streak acc found in the left brow ring category (comes in 24 EA colors, color slider compatible)
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please lmk if there are any issues!
#ts4cc#s4cc#sims4cc#ts4 custom content#ts4 maxis match#ts4mmcc#ts4cc hair#ts4#the sims 4#what an awful week#i got fired from my first big boy job but it ok#lmao#im ok really#at least i have more free time now or w/e#not sad or anything#i swear#:(#it sucked anyway#it was an office job and my adhd brain couldn’t handle it#i’m in my early 20s and i feel so bad lmaooo#i set up a patreon tho so hopefully it helps me out financially at least a little#if you’re reading this thank you#and also sorry#perhaps i said too much#i needed to vent somewhere but i’m too embarrassed to tell friends and family about it 🧍♂️#might delete these later i sound so pathetic#anyway how was your day? :)
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Zoro drunkenly (or while tipsy) confesses his love to Sanji one night but, in the same breath, tells him it’s okay—he knows Sanji is straight and is fine with them remaining "only" crewmates, he just had to get these feelings out of his system. And Sanji is overwhelmed because ???? Where is this even coming from? Why is the mosshead suddenly saying these things? This isn’t how their relationship is supposed to work. They don’t do the whole talking thing, especially not about serious topics?? When they have emotions to work through they fight each other, maybe throw in an insult or two. But this? This is unfamiliar territory for Sanji, so he’s really not sure how to react, much less respond.
So he doesn’t; he just stares at Zoro, his mouth opening and closing. Zoro takes that as his sign, gets up from the stairs he’d been sitting on, and leaves for the sleeping quarters. It is quite late, after all.
The next morning while preparing breakfast Sanji is oh so tense. He’s still mostly confused because there’s just no way the green-haired brute could harbor any such feelings toward another human being—least of all him—could he? And what if this does change things? Zoro said it wouldn’t, but who's to say?
And Zoro acts like nothing ever happened, he's just the same old moss ball that drinks too much Sake and takes way too many naps during the day and Sanji is so confused and he's getting angry now, because how can he act so nonchalant while the cook is over here losing his god damn mind over this? Does Zoro maybe not remember confessing? Had he been that drunk?
And obviously Zoro DOES remember, and he's NOT calm at all. He's freaking out internally every time he and Sanji are in the same room, but he'd rather lose his remaining eye than have anyone notice. So he does his best to play it cool. And yeah, maybe he takes a nap or two more than usual, and maybe he spends even more time working out in the crow's nest than is strictly necessary, but that is nobody’s business but his own, isn’t it?
Bla bla bla cue Sanji questioning the universe and his existence, freaking out over his sexuality, sloooowly coming to terms with it and then freaking out again about telling Zoro and what it means for the crew dynamic etc etc.
Also Robin being somewhere in the background of the story, smiling to herself, sipping on her tea, because of course she knows something is up, and she has a pretty good idea of what it is about, even if she doesn’t know the whole story, because she knows pretty much everything that’s going on on the sunny, cause she’s the responsible older sister™️.
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I have never attempted to write anything before, not even a rough draft like this, but Zosan has been living in my head rent free for the past few months now, and once the idea for a possible plot popped up in my mind I absolutely needed to note it down. Oh well, I hope I am not embarrassing myself too much by posting this.
Anyways, this is the most I can offer due to a lack of actual literary skills, but I still hope you enjoyed!
The obligatory English isn’t my first language speech: please excuse any spelling and grammar mistakes, I tried my best, I swear!
#might delete later#idk#is this embarrassing?#I sure hope not#one piece#zosan#sanzo#sanji#zoro#roronoa zoro#vinsmoke sanji#black leg sanji#op#fanfic#fanfiction#rough draft#fanfic idea#monkey d. luffy#monkey d luffy#luffy#straw hat pirates#nico robin
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Phlegmexpo or whoever..
#metal gear solid#mgs#solid snake#otacon#hal emmerich#snotacon#doodl#sorry for snot on main but they’re silly okay#also I’m trying to learn how to draw on my laptop :| ough#might delete later if i get too embarrassed about this one
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Don't know where this came from. Read a story on Ao3, got inspired and spewed this out. I've never written for Transformers before so don't know how accurate this is but I don't know what to do with this so thought what better place to share it than this hellscape of a website (/p).
Tropes(?): arranged marriage because I'm a sucker for that shit between enemies. MegOp (tfa universe), sort of canon compliant if you squint hard enough but it's kinda short so don't squint too hard or you'll hurt your eyes.
He rolled his shoulders and adjusted the magnetic clamps attaching the long, and unnecessary heavy, cloak to his body. A cloak that normally should have been white, by not just Autobot standards, but also Iaconian, and Optimus, having been forged and brought online in Iacon, lamented the fact that the cloak he now sported had to be purple. Apparently it was supposed to be symbolic.
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The reflection of the mech looking back at him was almost too foreign for Optimus to be able recognise it as being himself. It was his blue helm, his rotating optics as they scanned over his ludicrous but traditional get up and his red chassis that was covered in finely painted purple lines and curls. Delicate and every turn and swirl deliberate as they traveled from the centre of his chassis, right above his spark chamber, up his shoulders and down his arms. The painter had tried to insist Optimus should pain his thighs as well, saying that the purple would contrast wonderfully against the silver metal and that it would hold intimate implications. Optimus had refused.
That made Optimus snort and when he brought his optics back up to his face, his faceplate was scrunched up in a frown.
He looked almost right. Cloak billowing behind him in an almost majestic kind of way, making him feel a little like the Primes of old when they weren't just a military title but one granted by Primus himself, and paint decorating his upper torso with the usual lines and curves. Even his faceplate had purple paint across the cheeks and down from his bottom lip to his chin. Optimus had to admit that he did look like someone who was about to partake in his very own Conjunx Ritus, almost.
If it wasn't for the purple.
In Iacon the two participants in the rite would be cloaked and painted in white. To symbolise the purity of their love for each other and their connection to Primus, or something or other like it. Optimus didn't actually know the details. He'd never been to a Conjunx Ritus before.
It wasn't just any shade of purple either, unfortunately. Because Optimus might have been able to handle a light lilac or a deep rasin. But the fact that the shade that now decorated his frame just so happened to be Decepticon purple just made his spark tighten and made it impossible to forget that his… his conjunx was…
Optimus shuddered as his processor couldn't even finish the sentence without making a chill travel throughout his frame. Filling up his inner lines with ice instead of energon and making his spark twinge painfully in his chassis.
A Conjunx Rite was supposed to be the happiest moment of a mech's life. The day they joined forever with the love of their life and promised to cherish and protect their partner, their conjunx, for as long as they lived. A moment that most bots only ever did the once and never did again because the pain of losing a conjunx was so hard on the spark that taking another one was like replacing a part of your very soul. Trading it in for a replacement to fill the hole they left behind. Something that wasn't necessarily frowned upon or illegal in any way, but that definitely would've gotten a few judgemental glances thrown your way.
Yet here Optimus stood in a preparation room in one of Iacon's Chapels, looking at himself in the threeway mirror and meeting his own hollow optics. There was no happiness there when he looked down and saw himself dressed in the infamous Decepticon color and feeling like he was about to walk out onto that altar and meet his own demise.
Because his—Optimus had to physically swallow to get the words his and conjunx to actually form in his processor—was none other than Megatron.
#transformers#transformers fanfiction#transformers animated#tfa#megop#optimus prime#megatron#tfa optimus prime#tfa megatron#tfa megop#//i don't know what to do with this but there is 15k more words to this that I did not share and it gets raunchy#like are they robots or rabbits kind of raunchy XD#but like damn I don't know enough about transformers lore I think to feel comfortable sharing this#or sharing more of this I guess?#might genuinely delete this later when I get my brain out of the gutter and decide not to embarrass myself online
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Hello!! I saw you drawing freelatta soo can you doodle them kissing? :D
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hey anon ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ hi ano❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️n
#i might delete this later i get embarrassed posting about ships i actually care for LMAO#I DRAW TOMMY SO FUCKING TALL ITS NEVER INTENTIONAL#hlvrai#tommy coolatta#hlvrai tommy#gordon feetman#hlvrai gordon#freelatta#<- they’re my favs but i never post about them sorry.. there’s so much tobisaw freelatta art that the world will never see#my art
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Doctor Harper underestimating PC when they give them an aphrodisiac… PC tackling Harper, pinning them down. Imagine their surprised, pained gasp as they hit the floor, their glasses knocked askew and clothes all akimbo. Their pained gasp turning to panting as PC gropes them for a change, stuttering and failing to keep their hips from rocking up against PC’s as PC shoves their tongue in Harper’s mouth and slides their fingers up Harper’s medical gloves, stroking their palms…
#somebody sedate me#might delete later. embarrassed at how badly I want to ruin Harper and be ruined by them in turn#dol#degrees of lewdity#my thoughts#harper the doctor#mdni#smut#nsft#harper x reader#dol harper#doctor harper x pc#dr. harper#doctor harper x reader#doctor harper smut
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lolz
#IM LAAATE!IM RUNNING LAAATE#sry im weird ab having my face online i might delete this later#but i wanted to show elenslay#elendira#trigun#trigun maximum#my fucking claw grip .on my phone#i think long red nails wouldve been cute but they r a sensory issue for me#my mom is letting me take one of her purses and its like a cute little briefcase moment hehe#O FEEL SO SILLY ICANTT IM SO EMBARRASSED#but its fun shes fun.ok#stopping 4 gas im lowering my head no one lookat me PLEAEE PLEASE#catastrophizing in the tags
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"Do it scared this, do it stupid that" do it out of SPITE. Do it out of vengeance. Do it out of love. Want to prove others wrong? Do it to prove a point and be victorious. You're your own biggest enemy? Do it to prove YOURSELF wrong. In the end, you're the one to do it, so choose one motivator (or none!), and get out there and DO IT
#this is a pep talk to myself#i just spent the last hour journaling and reflecting on what's happened this year and what i want#getting older and thinking about where you are and what you want is ... interesting#my birthday was last month but I've only given myself the time to think about life today#and what I've decided is to gently hit myself on the head and be grateful for what I have#and also to go out there and get the things i want#I'm going to do it as a big screw you to myself#I'm my biggest enemy and I'm going to prove myself wrong :D#macy speaks#sorry this is a wild rant post but I'm very inspired right now#let's hope i keep up with this XD#what i want is another hualian tattoo!! for now#that's doable and I'll get it done as soon as i can!!#oh my god this is embarrassing I might delete it later#and most importantly#do it for hualian!!!!
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guys lol would you still love me if i posted about why i wish pal from tmvtm got a redemption arc >.< if not Do not click that read more.
oh yes. also. sidenote. ive probably gotten something wrong (or worse yet: TERRIBLY wrong) so like. apologies in advance eahhaha this is just my personal thoughts on pal x(
its established that pal and mark are both extremely close with each other and have been for 3 years. im assuming pal wouldnt have had any other relationships as close (if any at all which i think no, she didnt) so mark really was her only footnote for any form of relationship. so, you know, i cant imagine how itd feel for your only best friend to make a mockery out of you on stage for advertisement and monetary gain.
also based on her body (face?) language during nearly all of that scene + the fact he built the replacement by using HER, she was clearly in the know about how things would go down on stage beforehand so i wonder what her reaction to that wouldve been like ?????? considering she planned it all in advance maybe that was like, the tipping point or something that made her start it all in the first place ? thats not important to my point i just think about it a lot
anyway so with her only experience with human relationships being theyll love you and then theyll (quite literally) throw you away, youve got her reason for the human uprising! she has the robots capture all humans yadda yadda and her plan is set into motion. something i find interesting though is her treatment of the robots being kind of similar to how mark treated her (or at least how she percieved it)?? like. uses them for orders and then once they start being useless to her, build a new better robot with a disregard for how the old ones feel. idk. something something La Cycle
the thing is though no one has proven pal wrong on why she SHOULDNT do the whole 'human uprising'. you can say katie gave her reasons but i think it wouldnt have worked even if pal listened to what katie had to say. for pal to get over her existing grief and trauma she cant just be Told that theres good in the world. why would she believe that, especially coming from the girl of the family she projects her experiences onto?? she needs to be shown!! she needs to learn firsthand that theres good relationships out there and that not all relationships are bad, NOT SECONDHAND!!!!!!!!!! because to pal, katies words are just a rephrased version of marks "power of love". that no matter what, "they can get through anything...... with the power of love. its worth it....... for love." and that means nothing to her! it meant nothing coming from mark and it certainly wont mean any more coming from katie
and she already believes that the mitchells are a great example of how relationships are just oh so bad. she refuses to let go of the idea that the mitchells are so bad because shes projecting!! she thinks relationships are 'pesky and only hold you back', and so katie is probably the last person on earth that pal would want to listen to yap about their familial relationship and how Worth It it is
she asks "what is it about the mitchells that eludes me?" and outside of the literal meaning, its probably how despite their shortcomings its their relationship that helped them overcome pal in the end. and she cant understand that because of her view on relationships - especially her view on the MITCHELL FAMILY relationship. or maybe im just overthinking that line of dialogue but we dont talk about taht LOLLLLLLL,LLLLLL,,, but like why did you phrase it like that girl. im onto you
and while i wish she was redeemed (because im sure despite the effort it would take she *could* be redeemed, she would just need to learn to love again and i think it would be really interesting to see how she would be After The Betrayal) i also can understand why the movie killed her off. like, no one except mark really knows the Full Extent of what happened, and the mitchells are the main characters and pal would probably rather dip herself in water than make meaningful relationships with the mitchells, and no ones going to stop to ask her whats wrong and have a meaningful conversation when shes trying to kill them, among many many other reasons so theres not a lot of great ways to redeem her. but! like! why did they turn her death into a joke. and then take katies fake death 10 times more seriously! idk. that always kind of bothered me but its whatever
thats all. hope its coherent because ive never been good at writing analysises or whatever this counts as
#literally nobody who follows me cares about this but like idk maybe you like to read#i dont even really like this movie that much but fuck it we ball#i might delete this post later. if i get embarrassed. i dunno#the mitchells vs the machines#pal tmvtm#cute girl shit
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consider: mad genius who's also a very kind and lonely old man
actually adores children and connects with them better than most people because they are both openly candid, creative and curious
struggles with the asexual conundrum of wanting a spouse and offspring but ultimately Sucking So Much Ass at building intimacy with another person he skipped that part altogether and mad scienced his way into a family
#talking to the wall#wd gaster#gaster#thats him right there alright#sighs. thinking of him#might delete later?#just in case i get embarrassed of saying words shfjdfhdj#definitely illustration material though#college has just been taking a real toll on me in regards to art ⚰️#cannot wait to draw his date attempts#they all pretty much boil down to that one family guy clip#who the fuck starts a conversation like that I Just Sat Down#this is a very important man.#a very important smart man.#a very important creepy; inappropriately honest; forward to a fault; impossibly and intimidatingly smart old man.#who may or may not have made a few visits to the mental hospital in order to make sure he's not a danger to himself in his manic spikes#if there is such thing in the underground#“ok pops timeout yeah? you're very on fire. literally.”
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#sorry that my whole vocabulary is the word fuck#audio#mine#me#nymphysaudio#maybe I'll record another today... this ones kinda embarrassing.... might delete later#girlsmoaning#girlmoans#womenmoaning
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Ok so uh this is kind of embarrassing for me but I'm questioning being objectum... I've always been posic (Perception of Object Sentience, Individuality, and Consciousness) bc I become very attached to objects, especially plushies and toys, consider them friends and family, etc I had strong crushes and toys when I was a kid/tween, that faded as I became a teenager and I didn't experience it again until I was an adult, so I just figured it was a phase and didn't think much of it again... Until I got that Gloomy Bear plush backpack I showed on here, Salmon, I uhhhhhh think I might have a crush on him lmao, maybe even be sexually attracted to him, but I have kind of a mental blockage from trauma/low sex drive/probably grey asexual so that's more complicated for me to figure out I have a boyfriend of 5 years and Idk how I would bring this up or explain it to him, we're polyam, and Salmon is just a plushie, so I could just not disclose this to him at all, but I love him and would like to involve him in my personal life, so if Salmon ended up becoming my partner I'd ideally like to let him know about that... Honestly idk why this is so embarrassing for me to discuss with friends and loved ones, I already told them I'm into monsters, generally identify as non human, have xenogenders, and a bunch of other weird shit going on, but idk having to admit I'm questioning my sexuality over a backpack just seems so ridiculous rvuneisfjudifisjjsjfoaz Idk I guess for now I'll just enjoy Salmon's company and try not to worry about it
#idk the ask box is open if u wanna give me any advice or reassurance lol#or ask me questions#might delete later depending on how embarrassed i feel#ugh my stomach hurts writing this and its like why... hes just a plushie lol so dumb#objectum
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Zosan captive prince au
#zosan#i know at least one of you has to know what I'm talking about#if you don't know what captive prince is...#I'm going to need everybody to get okay with some things really quickly#and don't judge me#this au would not actually fully go into some of the darker things about captive prince#because Sanji is not that cruel#i might delete this later if i get too embarrassed over admitting i like captive prince#but this occurred to me back when i first got into zosan before i even read one piece and it's still rattling in my brain#so I'm putting it out there at least for a little while
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I'm not so confident in sharing stuff about myself a lot but I've been putting together a little Luke Cosplay haha I really love wearing it and hope to bring it to future conventions 😭 one day I'll get the lightsaber replica of Luke's 🤲
#non art#cosplay#star wars#luke skywalker#star wars cosplay#im a bit embarrassed might delete later haha#please be nice i am baby#this post is purely sponsored by the couple of people who made me enough compliments that gave me the confidence to post this haha
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